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[onerthes]

[A tinny man's voice gives what is clearly a default answer machine message. Vira-Lorr is still figuring the phone out it seems.]
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[onerthes]

I am not actually interested in anyone else. I want something different than I usually want. I don't want to sleep with her or just some casual fling. Ok, that's not entirely true. I'm attracted to her, so yes. I want that, but I want something more. If I move on, it'll only be after I know this door is closed to me. Max is actually a very special girl, Reaper.

You're right though. I've been a fool for waiting three months through memory issues, Domes and this madness. It will never stop being terrible here. The 'peace' I pretend I want is an excuse not to ask because I'm not asking for what I usually ask, and I'm honestly worried that Chloe's right and that someone like me doesn't have any business asking her, someone who's been as casual about sex as I've been. And maybe she just said that because she was angry and hurt and I was threatening to take Max's heart even if my odds aren't great, but it doesn't mean I haven't thought that. I spent months working in as a prostitute, Reaper. And I don't regret the choices I make, but the affect how I think of myself. Am I the type of girl who can settle down, stop chasing after flings or the 'perfect man' and choose someone who's just special?

I will talk to her. I promise. But I have to help Allura first. I have to find a way to get through to her and to Chara, before they hurt themselves. Romance can't take precedence over that.

(OOC: HAHAHA yeah I know. It's a mercy. She fixed Allura right after Allura axes Vira. It's hilarious timing.)

[no_reload]

My God, you're actually serious about this girl. No wonder you're hesitating, what with Chloe being a bitch about it.

As long as you are admitting that it's excuses and not you waiting for a peak time. There is no optimal time to ask someone to date you, so you may as well find an opportunity to grab it both hands.

I can't believe I'm going to have to do this. I feel filthy and I haven't even typed yet, but pay attention. I'm only typing this once, and know that I don't care about your interpersonal nonsense aside from reveling in the drama of it. Still, here is real advice:

Chloe isn't right. Chloe can't currently tell her ass from a hole in the ground. She's a mess, and anything that might pretain to relationship advice is actually shit spewing from between her lips. She wouldn't know what she wanted if it was tattooed backwards on her forehead, so her opinion on this matter is literally sabotage to you.

Do what you want and live with the outcome. Max says yes, there you go. Max says no, there you go to. If you let someone else's opinion about the relevance of your feelings and experiences taint how you conduct yourself, I will come over there and put a bullet in your third eye.

[onerthes]

I'm not sure how serious I am Reaper. That's the problem, and I want to find out if I actually am, and do you know that in the last century of my life I haven't actually had the time to go out on a date? I don't mean shagging in some closet somewhere, I mean a date. An actual attempt at romance?

I honestly think I've been using casual sex, casual everything, to avoid ever finding out if I cared about someone enough to be hurt by them, or to be tied down. By the time I even thought about it with Rex, he was madly in love with Dyshana.

I love Chloe, I do, but I won't let her decide if I should ask Max out. I can deal with a yes, or a no. I can cope with either answer somehow. And if she asks for a little time, I can give that. It's not like I don't have centuries to give. But I will ask. Soon.

[no_reload]

I would say that's pathetic, but what's the saying? Don't throw stones at glass houses. It seems to me that you being interested in Max enough to be so considerate of her feelings and that of Chloe and timing and all that other nonsense means you're actually interested.

This is Deerington. If you stay here long enough, every single person will hurt you on some level. Tied down might also become literal. Be careful what you wish for.

Ask her out and get it over with. You'll have your answer. I will be checking in on this soon.

[Honestly, because he's nosy. No one gives him good gossip anymore.]

[onerthes]

Give me just a little time but I will.

Alright, I need a rest from this. My life is maddening enough, and I need to figure out how to deal with Chara before they hurt themselves and someone else. I'll be in touch, Reaper.

[no_reload]

Good. I will be checking in.

Chara? What has that strange child done this time?

[onerthes]

Nothing to worry about. I have this covered, Reaper. I'll speak to you again soon.

[no_reload]

I can't say that I am worried. Don't die.