[A tinny man's voice gives what is clearly a default answer machine message. Vira-Lorr is still figuring the phone out it seems.] "Hello, we are not available now. Please leave your name and phone number after the beep. We will return your call." *Beep*
[The best defense was a good offense. She could certainly appreciate it. But right now, she was trying desperately to make sure that the girl understood that she wanted, needed to be treated as powerful in her own right, and that she felt she needed to trust Makoto in turn.]
I promise you that I will remain safe, and that I will not do something that I regret. I will not die again. I will swear that I will do whatever I have to to make sure that I don't.
Even if it means fleeing a superior foe with my tail tucked between my legs, wrapping myself in my shawl that gives me silence and hiding. I will stay alive, Makoto.
You must promise me that you will not make a foolish choice either.
[She had to bite back the demand 'promise me you won't die.' It chilled her bones, especially with all she knew, especially with the feeling that her very being was broken and how every death brought a person closer to that, but she would not make her promise that. She had no place asking anyone for that promise anymore.]
[It seemed to be a habit now, to always have one last thing to ask Vira-Lorr when they had these conversations.]
Tell Atsushi that he doesn't have to fell bad for hurting me. And if anything happens, make sure the he and Usagi are safe. Tell them to stay with Setsuna.
[She laughed. She shouldn't, but she did. It was a tired and slightly bitter laugh as she dragged her hand through her hair.]
Of course I will. Again. I already have, I swear it... but I mean it. That poor boy has old pains. We... have to be patient with him as we help him, Makoto. He will learn that you hold no ill will and still care for him, and that I feel the same in time. But we have to happen.
But... I will tell him to stay with Setsuna and Usagi. I promise that. And I will help protect him. I worry that he doesn't know when to stop risking himself.
Thank you as well. I meant it. We will get through this, Makoto, one way or anothe. I have not come this far to give up.
Not on Roderic. Not on Sodder. Not even on that mad dog Superior. And certainly not on you, Atsushi or anyone else I care for.
Since you asked me an extra promise, I'll ask you one. Promise me you'll try to sleep tonight. I can't imagine it would be easy, but you'll be stronger with rest.
Thanks for checking in, Makoto. It's getting hard to keep track of everyone. As I feared, but it doesn't make it less frustrating. Call me if you need anything.
I'll be at FEAR a lot. But I'll take a moment here and there to check the library, to make sure who's staying there. It will be good to keep stocked on incense.
My home is available, but I'm going to let Susan and the Doctor handle things there. There's too much to do, I think you'd agree.
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Date: 2020-10-11 10:27 pm (UTC)Promise you'll be safe. That I won't have to stop from doing something you'd regret.
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Date: 2020-10-11 11:41 pm (UTC)I promise you that I will remain safe, and that I will not do something that I regret. I will not die again. I will swear that I will do whatever I have to to make sure that I don't.
Even if it means fleeing a superior foe with my tail tucked between my legs, wrapping myself in my shawl that gives me silence and hiding. I will stay alive, Makoto.
You must promise me that you will not make a foolish choice either.
[She had to bite back the demand 'promise me you won't die.' It chilled her bones, especially with all she knew, especially with the feeling that her very being was broken and how every death brought a person closer to that, but she would not make her promise that. She had no place asking anyone for that promise anymore.]
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Date: 2020-10-12 04:30 am (UTC)I promise, I won't do anything reckless.
[At least anymore reckless than her usual behavior.]
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Date: 2020-10-12 05:03 am (UTC)There we go. And now we've both promised, and I trust you, Makoto. We don't know each other that well, but we're getting to.
...
And you like to wear your heart on your sleeve. I think it's an admirable quantity.
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Date: 2020-10-12 05:11 am (UTC)[It seemed to be a habit now, to always have one last thing to ask Vira-Lorr when they had these conversations.]
Tell Atsushi that he doesn't have to fell bad for hurting me. And if anything happens, make sure the he and Usagi are safe. Tell them to stay with Setsuna.
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Date: 2020-10-12 05:23 am (UTC)Of course I will. Again. I already have, I swear it... but I mean it. That poor boy has old pains. We... have to be patient with him as we help him, Makoto. He will learn that you hold no ill will and still care for him, and that I feel the same in time. But we have to happen.
But... I will tell him to stay with Setsuna and Usagi. I promise that. And I will help protect him. I worry that he doesn't know when to stop risking himself.
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Date: 2020-10-12 05:50 am (UTC)Thank you, for everything.
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Date: 2020-10-12 05:56 am (UTC)Not on Roderic. Not on Sodder. Not even on that mad dog Superior. And certainly not on you, Atsushi or anyone else I care for.
Since you asked me an extra promise, I'll ask you one. Promise me you'll try to sleep tonight. I can't imagine it would be easy, but you'll be stronger with rest.
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Date: 2020-10-12 03:36 pm (UTC)I'll try.
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Date: 2020-10-12 03:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-10-12 05:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-10-12 05:42 pm (UTC)My home is available, but I'm going to let Susan and the Doctor handle things there. There's too much to do, I think you'd agree.