I am not actually interested in anyone else. I want something different than I usually want. I don't want to sleep with her or just some casual fling. Ok, that's not entirely true. I'm attracted to her, so yes. I want that, but I want something more. If I move on, it'll only be after I know this door is closed to me. Max is actually a very special girl, Reaper.
You're right though. I've been a fool for waiting three months through memory issues, Domes and this madness. It will never stop being terrible here. The 'peace' I pretend I want is an excuse not to ask because I'm not asking for what I usually ask, and I'm honestly worried that Chloe's right and that someone like me doesn't have any business asking her, someone who's been as casual about sex as I've been. And maybe she just said that because she was angry and hurt and I was threatening to take Max's heart even if my odds aren't great, but it doesn't mean I haven't thought that. I spent months working in as a prostitute, Reaper. And I don't regret the choices I make, but the affect how I think of myself. Am I the type of girl who can settle down, stop chasing after flings or the 'perfect man' and choose someone who's just special?
I will talk to her. I promise. But I have to help Allura first. I have to find a way to get through to her and to Chara, before they hurt themselves. Romance can't take precedence over that.
(OOC: HAHAHA yeah I know. It's a mercy. She fixed Allura right after Allura axes Vira. It's hilarious timing.)
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You're right though. I've been a fool for waiting three months through memory issues, Domes and this madness. It will never stop being terrible here. The 'peace' I pretend I want is an excuse not to ask because I'm not asking for what I usually ask, and I'm honestly worried that Chloe's right and that someone like me doesn't have any business asking her, someone who's been as casual about sex as I've been. And maybe she just said that because she was angry and hurt and I was threatening to take Max's heart even if my odds aren't great, but it doesn't mean I haven't thought that. I spent months working in as a prostitute, Reaper. And I don't regret the choices I make, but the affect how I think of myself. Am I the type of girl who can settle down, stop chasing after flings or the 'perfect man' and choose someone who's just special?
I will talk to her. I promise. But I have to help Allura first. I have to find a way to get through to her and to Chara, before they hurt themselves. Romance can't take precedence over that.
(OOC: HAHAHA yeah I know. It's a mercy. She fixed Allura right after Allura axes Vira. It's hilarious timing.)