Something close to that. But not quite. I think Chloe was under the effects of something, because she was unusually blunt even for her. She said things about me that were not exactly false, but they were definitely the worst construction. I rounded right back at her, and for the moment I don't think we're speaking. I have a few regrets over what I said, but I don't think I was wrong either.
They're not being entirely fair to each other, or to anyone else who might get caught in the mix. Part of Chloe is upset because she doesn't want me to try and sleep with Max casually, which is fair, and because she wants Max for herself, which is only fair if Max wants her in turn. Max may, or Max may want something back with Chloe that she can never ever have, and if it's the latter that's not fair either.
And the gods only know, she's probably shot her mouth off to Max and I should expect an angry phone call one of these days from her as well. The worst part is, for all the idiocy of this situation? I'm still interested in Max, and I still do care about Chloe, whatever she thinks of me right now. If they ended up together, I would probably back off completely for both their sakes, but if Max is pointedly not with Chloe, I don't think I'm wrong in at least offering one day.
I just want to see her smile once, the way I'm sure she can when she's not constantly avoiding her feelings all the time and trying to be stronger than everyone else. And maybe I'm selfish enough to want her to smile about me that way.
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Date: 2019-10-19 11:48 pm (UTC)They're not being entirely fair to each other, or to anyone else who might get caught in the mix. Part of Chloe is upset because she doesn't want me to try and sleep with Max casually, which is fair, and because she wants Max for herself, which is only fair if Max wants her in turn. Max may, or Max may want something back with Chloe that she can never ever have, and if it's the latter that's not fair either.
And the gods only know, she's probably shot her mouth off to Max and I should expect an angry phone call one of these days from her as well. The worst part is, for all the idiocy of this situation? I'm still interested in Max, and I still do care about Chloe, whatever she thinks of me right now. If they ended up together, I would probably back off completely for both their sakes, but if Max is pointedly not with Chloe, I don't think I'm wrong in at least offering one day.
I just want to see her smile once, the way I'm sure she can when she's not constantly avoiding her feelings all the time and trying to be stronger than everyone else. And maybe I'm selfish enough to want her to smile about me that way.