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A far more sensible approach.

Relish life that you have, and live in that moment. But you know that, clearly. Only those who do not live so long ever really want to try. It's a lesson you don't learn until time passes.

Your way is the better one, Maul.

[ Ohhh, she is trying so hard to sound calm. So hard. But there's definitely that typical coldness and slight shake to her voice that she can't quite get rid of when she's upset. ]

You're fucking Keith?

[Was now the time to mention that she was one of Keith's pregnancy scares too? She could definitely mention that he wasn't the only person Keith had been freaking out about condoms with. Oh yes, she could absolu...

She fucking knew better.]

Yes. Since I came back from the dead.

...

I ... [sigh. She almost asked "Who told you." That was the wrong question] I am not proud of this, but I can barely sleep unless he screws me unconscious some nights.

Please... gods... tell me you're not still involved. I didn't want to help him cheat on you, but I thought you two...

[ She's gonna break something. Give her a second to fight off the urge.

Maybe a full minute. ]

No. We're done. He's not talking to me anymore. I just—

[ She swallows audibly and there is absolutely the sound of ... sniffling? This is fine. Everything is fine. ]

I thought he'd at least wait a little while to just replace me like that. Guess I'm the idiot again.

Have fun. Or whatever.

Fuck... [She gripped her head... too hard, but she felt nothing... damnit, she hated this.]

Fuck... fuck... I asked him. I was desperate, after the last time. I can't get the images of all the times out of my head. I'm a wreck some nights. This isn't... fun. I...

Chloe... I can't even feel him when he's inside of me. I barely know it's happening. I just have something else to think about before I finally collapse. I have no sense of touch and the last thing I remember of touch is the pain when it happened.

He told me how broken he was one night... before I died, and I was desperate. He's not some innocent babe, but ... I'm sorry. I just can't help hurting you.

I'm sorry. I haven't been a good friend to you.

[ A small portion of the way through this, Chloe's clamped her hands down tightly over her ears. ]

Stop. I don't— I don't need to hear this. I don't want the fucking details, okay?

I'm not mad at you. You're not doing anything wrong.

Chloe... If... I'm not doing anything wrong...

Why do I always cause you so much pain?

[Shitty life choices in a shitty place, and not knowing when to shut up, probably.]

It's not ... you making me hurt right now.

[ A beat before she gives a weak laugh. ]

I mean, short of when you talk too fucking much. Less is more, okay? I—

[ She rubs at her face, taking a shaky breath. ]

You helped, honestly. I was still holding onto hope that was just gonna get fucked over eventually anyway. At least I could ask someone who wouldn't sugar coat the truth.

Yes... I suppose I don't know when to shut up sometimes. [Siiiiiiigh] I've been a wreck for the last month, Chloe, sorry.

...

Try not to hate him too much. We're both idiots. May I ... May I ask how you found out? Because it clearly wasn't Keith, and if the Doctor has been...I might need to have a chat about privacy with him.

It's fine.

But don't tell me how to feel about Keith right now. I don't give a shit how stupid he is, he's being an absolute asshole and I'm sick of people making excuses for him.

I found out because of the writing that's been showing up on the walls around town.

Fair. That's the last I say about it.

....ngh...

The bear. It's that damned bear. He said he'd be doing something, and I suppose this is his first wretched volley. Gah. Well, be careful what you believe on the walls... Just saying.

That's why I came and asked. This isn't any different than the walls in the high school. I thought maybe they were just saying it to be assholes, but they listed... some other people you fucked so. I wanted to be sure.

It mentioned us I take it? Hana?

...

May I ask what it said exactly?

[ She's quiet for a looooong time, because this definitely brings up some bad memories of shit she said in the worst moments of her life. ]

It said you used us all for sex. That that's... what you do.

ngh... So it's intentionally cruel, I see.

I didn't use you for sex, Chloe. I want you to know that. I didn't use you or Hana. [She was definitely using Keith. There was no pretending there.]

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...
...

It mentioned Max. Don't bother to deny it. If he's being as cruel as possible, it had to. If it mentioned you and Hana, it mentioned her. You ... I don't want to dredge that back up but know that I never would have. I want her to be happy, for you to be happy, Chloe.

I know, Vira. Despite... the things I said, I know you're not like that. You don't have to keep feeling guilty just because I have a tendency to be a jealous bitch sometimes.

You know... I forgive you for being a jealous bitch. She's worth waging a war over, and we both know it. Gods... she'd turn beet red if she heard us talking about her like that.

But... I'm glad you know that. I fucked a lot of things up, and it's important to me that you both know. I'll... I'll talk to her if I need to, but I think she knows the truth.

She's never thought she was worth fighting for. But she's everything to me. I'm an idiot sometimes and I can be blinded by my own bullshit, but at the end of everything, it's always been me and Max. No matter what. I—

Did she ever tell you about home? Or did you ever... see her memories?

I think she'll understand that the walls are just fucking with people. She's a pretty rational person.

I ... be careful, Chloe. If this is like before, people may be hoodwinked or compelled. I'm going to be keeping my gem with me. It helps me, but most aren't protected. He means to divide us, she means to divide us, and this is only the first stab.

Just be careful.

[Sigh.] I've been careful not to ask much. But I know that you ... died. And I know that you had a lot of time with her, time that I...

...

She used her powers on you didn't she? To stop it from happening?

[How'd old three eyes figure that one out? Cause Max did that to her too, and she firmly believed Max was the sort of person who wouldn't consider the consequences of screwing with the flow of time when someone died that she didn't want to die.]

Yeah. I think we've both been here long enough to know their tricks.

[ Chloe's quiet again for a second, before she sighs. ]

She did. It's—

Max and I were best friends as kids. The tightest you could ever be. But the day my dad died, she told me she was moving to Seattle, and her parents took her the day of his funeral. She ghosted me and ... for five years, it was complete radio silence.

And then Nathan Prescott cornered me in the bathroom and she saw him shoot me and she tried to fix it. That's what sparked her powers in the first place. I didn't even know she was back in town and she didn't even know it was me, she just saved my life because she couldn't watch a stranger die.

And then she had to save me again. And again. Over and over. [ She swallows. ] About... seven times in total? She's seen me die in just about every way you can imagine.

... she and I once spoke about this. I realize this is hard, but...

How badly did she screw up the timestream of your world, Chloe? Exactly how bad did it get? I remember how bad it was when she did it the once with me in the tunnels. [Shudder.]

She's amazingly put together, considering what she's seen. And she loves you. More than I can imagine anyone loving another.

[ Talking about this literally never gets easier. She takes a deep breath. ]

Animals started dying. Like... birds falling out of the sky at random, whales washing up on shore, squirrels dashing in front of cars or just dropping dead in the grass. And then the moon started to get fucked up. And after that, there... There was this... huge storm. It was gonna wipe out the whole town.

That's enough... you don't have to say more. Time... Time does not enjoy being toyed with. I know that. It was the only magic none of us ever knew, forbidden even beyond necromancy.

I will never fault her for her choices. I'm not sure if I could do whatever she did in that moment. [Sigh.] You know... Ashe is having a party. you're coming, right?

I'm going to be getting pretty high. We could both use the relaxation, I think. And I hven't gotten high with you in a while.

[ She takes a second to gather herself, nodding and deciding it's better to not address anything about time magic.

Instead, she clears her throat, and focuses on the latter. ]

Yeah. I mean, I live with Ashe part time now, pretty much, so it's sort of a required appearance.

Alright, so I'm hobbling over with my magic staff for the barbecue, and we're getting high, watching fireworks. This is a thing that's happening.

...

I do love you, Chloe. As a friend. Gods, always feel free to call, if you need anything. I'll do what I can to help.

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